Going through the motions

**Update at the end

"I don't wanna go through the motions

I don't wanna go one more day

Without Your all consuming passion inside of me

I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,"What if I had given everything,

Instead of going through the motions?"



Lately the lyrics of this song have consumed me. I repeat the words over and over in my mind.

It's not the tune in my head. It's the words.

I say the words. Then pray. Ask God what He's trying to tell me.

My mind goes back to when I first became a Christian at the age of 20.....

The passion....

The love I felt overflowing in my heart...

Wanting everyone to know this God I knew....

Sharing my testimony to family, friends, strangers....

It was what I was called to do.

From the moment He called me to be His.

What happened between then and now?

I can't remember the last time I helped someone to accept Jesus.

What happened?

That wasn't me 10 years ago.

Me 10 years ago was alert to every opportunity.

Last night I got a call that an uncle passed away. One I haven't spoken to in years.

I prayed.

I cried.

My heart ached.

Very heavily ached.

Not only because he passed away, but because I didn't know.

I didn't know.

I prayed that he did know.

That someone braver than me had shared with him who Christ was.

I feel he did know. From what I've know about this amazing man...I feel he knew.

He was was a peaceful, loving, caring person, and said he believed.

My mind then started to think of the many others that I didn't know about.

There were those I knew didn't know. Or chose to not know.

And I prayed.

Lord...don't let me just go through the motions of this life....

Help me to find opportunities to tell others about you...to seek them out...

And not just wait for them to come to me.

I don't want my heart to ache for a soul I could have helped, but didn't.

That is the purpose we are here.

We are not meant to just our lives day in and out.

I know I'm not meant to share with everyone.

But please send the right person into their lives that will do it.

Let us all go and tell what the Lord has done for us!


"I will tell of the kindnesses of the LORD, the deeds for which he is to be praised, according to all the LORD has done for us...." Isaiah 63:7

"Give thanks to the LORD, call on his name; make known among the nations what he has done. Sing to him, sing praise to him; tell of all his wonderful acts." 1 Chronicles 16:8-9

**After writing this I ran across this blog post, which tells so much more eloquently what I meant to say: http://traciemiles.blogspot.com/2009/03/when-time-is-no-more.html

A little poetry

I do not have a face to see


Or put inside a frame


I do not have soft cheeks to kiss


I don't yet have a name.


You can't yet hold my tiny hands


Nor whisper in my ear.


It's still too soon to sing a song,


Or cuddle me so near.


But all will change come October 12


That's when they say I'm due.


I'm the newest Lopez baby


And I can't wait til I meet you!


Introducing Baby Lopez ~ 10 weeks old :)

"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart.." Jeremiah 1:5

"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb." Psalm 139:13